back to the future.

once in a while, i will feel like blogging. i think this is a better place to rant now since prob no one would think that id blog again. how nice=)

i wanna bring time forward, like in the show 'back to the future'. the past few days and weeks have been tiring. i dont know why, it just feels as though everything's not right. like a broken puzzle. :( sometimes i can't get my feelings right, and other times, these feelings come so suddenly that tears could be so hard to hold back. it makes me wonder if i've been putting on a false front and that feeling sucks.. just about like the feeling of wanting to puke and about to puke any moment.

i dont know what's been up with me and my system lately lar. giddyness, nauseousness, and diarrhoea. jiawen's mom says it's food poisoning. at first i thought it was sea sick from the kelong trip. so is it food poisoning or what?

maybe i just miss too many people. finally got to meet wallie online just now. so long since we caught up. so much to say to her i dont know where and how to start. how i wish she could just come back at this very moment man.. like teleport here so we can share root beer and ice cream=) it really takes a lot of time to know who someone really is and how someone really is like, whether some people are mere friends or true friends. and i think it's so hard to find super duper true friends nowadays, dont even know if i'm fit to be one lar.. though i keep trying to.and sometimes it can be quite tiring. it's like when you see someone you dont really know, and smile, and you dont get a smile back. yeah, something like that. its funny how such trivial stuff can affect me. im laughing at myself alr..

today, this afternoon, i was lying in bed since i had stomach(clem says its abdomen) cramps, so my sis and i sorta had a heart to heart talk. or rather, she was telling me about her stuff lar. she told me about the friends she had.. this guy who liked her and she liked him back in pri sch(really cute), and many many other things.. i think she's much tougher than me.. dunno why, cuz i cry super easily? or is it just bacuase she doesnt tell me.?